You are worth more than the harsh things things you say and or do to yourself. Self is often the time to root of our own demise. Don’t get me wrong trama, people, etc play a factor as well but if we ourselves are willing to overcome (not get over but overcome, there is a huge difference) what is wading on you, how will you break through.
No one is perfect, no body is perfect. Stop looking at others goals and focus on yours. As long as the goal is healthy and keeps/makes you confident: that is all that matters.
I am working on my plating more and more. Still needs some work but I think this honey glazed pork chop with green beans and mashed turned out well.